Yesterday’s yoga class was thought-provoking on so many levels. Our yoga instructor talked about support that we have in our lives. Whether it be family, friends, spouses. And then of course that led to how we are supported in yoga, our hands, feet, core et cetera.
During the class we were asked to do some things I had never tried before, namely using the wall for support. One of the most challenging poses is called the L Dog (see photo below) I watched what the instructor did, and then promptly decided that I couldn’t do it. I’m sure it wasn’t that difficult, other students managed it, but something about the pose made me feel like I couldn’t accomplish it, and therefore I shouldn’t try. We also did lots of core work, which I suck at because of multiple surgeries and plus I hate core work so I don’t do it as often as I should. Some of the poses that required balancing on one foot were just not possible due to my (stupid and annoying) heel spur. So much for support from my core and feet!
So I came out of this yoga class thinking about two things. One of the things about support in my everyday life and the support my body gives me. Like many people, I am supported by a network of friends, family and a spouse. I feel like I am truly blessed with a wonderful and supportive spouse. He is always supportive in everyway, whether it is day-to-day problems, or things that seem insurmountable at the time. He has been there to support me and hold me after the death of my two grandmothers, the death of pets, periods of depression, and several surgeries and car accidents. Even if I do something really stupid, and believe me, I do some pretty stupid things, he’s never judgmental or unkind. So at home, I am blessed with a wonderful support system from the man who is also my best friend and just as goofy and pet crazy as me.
It’s fortunate that I have this wonderful support system at home, because physically, my support system is lacking right now. As a result of the injury in my left foot, my entire body is being thrown out of whack. It’s difficult to walk, my right knee hurts, and it is also throwing out my hips and my back. This one tiny little bone spur in my left foot, is messing up my entire body. I am discovering important it is to have a balanced support system whether it is in your day-to-day life, or keeping your body healthy, so you can accomplish things you want to do in life.
Because I have such a wonderful support system at home, in the form of my beloved spouse, I feel like I can do almost anything in life. But conversely, because I have a small injury on my left foot, many of the things I want to do in life right now I just can’t do. What a pain in the ass.
Don’t get me wrong, when I didn’t have a loving and supportive spouse at home, I wasn’t sitting around feeling sorry for myself, thinking that I couldn’t do anything. No, I was still out there living the life I wanted to lead and having adventures. But it sure is nice to come home at the end of the day, after a particularly shitty day, knowing that I will have somebody there who loves, understands and supports me. Even though I know that sometimes that is a remarkably difficult task.
Before I forget, the other thing that I noticed in yoga class, is how quickly I decided that I couldn’t do the L Dog. I didn’t even try to put my feet up on the wall to see if I could accomplish it. And that really upsets me, I can’t believe I didn’t even try. So, tonight after my swim, I’m going to go down to the basement and I’m going to try the L Dog. If I end up in the hospital you know what happened.