What does that even mean anyways? Does that mean I’m going to give up my comfortable Merrell shoes, the awesome gel mattress pad on the bed, the heated seats in my car, or any of those other little things that make living just a little bit more comfortable? No, not at all.
What I’m talking about is living outside my comfort zone in the year to come. In the year 2012 I accomplished a lot. I started a fitness program, I became a huge fan of Zumba, and became a licensed Zumba instructor. I lost a lot of weight (much more to come), spent more time on my motorcycle, and building my skills on the track. But at what I didn’t do was start to actually teach Zumba – one of the things I wanted to do most.
The thing I lack the most, and the thing that is hardest to obtain, is self-confidence in my ability. Why is that? It’s not like you have to be a super fit Amazon to teach Zumba. To the contrary. People of all sizes types and ages teach Zumba and love doing so. For me, I think I am afraid to fail, and therefore I am afraid to start. But not this year. I love Zumba, and I know I will love teaching it, I just have to start getting out there and doing more.
I know that not everyone is going to love me as an instructor. I have to learn to be okay with that. And as uncomfortable as that makes me feel, I just have to learn to deal with it and not let it change my energy. Just like in every aspect of life, not everyone is going to love everything about you, and everything you do. What matters is that I feel good about what I’m doing, and what I am accomplishing.
And I am embarrassed to admit, that I think this is the main reason I have really not jumped into instructing like I thought I would. Fear of looking like a fool, and and that people wouldn’t want to be in any class that was taught by me. At this point in my life, I feel like I need to be able to get past that.
About 9 years ago, I was MUCH fitter and smaller and bellydance was a big part of my life. I practiced several times per week and performed in many recitals. My friends and I choreographed and performed our own dances. And it was so much fun! I loved the music, the costumes and the friendship! I need to find that level of commitment and self confidence again.
We fail at 100% of the things that we don’t even try to do. So even if its scary, or uncomfortable, I need to step up and out of my comfort zone and do it anyways. I have nothing to lose (except weight) and everything to gain by doing so!